Christian Religion…ja nehhh…

For in the gospel a righteousness from God is revealed, a righteousness that is by faith from first to last, just as it is written: “The righteous will live by faith.” (Rom. 1:17), Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God(Heb 12:2).  Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful. (Heb. 10:23).

Some Christians carry their religion on their backs. It is a packet of beliefs and practices which they must bear. At times it grows heavy and they would willingly lay it down, but that would mean a break with old traditions, so they shoulder it again. But real Christians do not carry their religion, their religion carries them. It is not weight, it is wings. It lifts them up, it sees them over hard places. It makes the universe seem friendly, life purposeful, hope real, sacrifice worthwhile. It sets them free from fear, futility, discouragement, and sin — the great enslaver of men’s souls. You can know a real Christian when you see him, by his bouyancy. –Harry Emerson Fosdick.

Since last night my spirit just went down after i came from church. I wondered why? was it because i felt envious over others who were chosen to prepare messages for the conference? or was it because i was not seen as a leader in the ministry? I know there is a constant foolish war in my heart to be seen as great, so not being elected to resume a leadership position can result in making me feel somehow. However i will continue to struggle against this stupid feeling and this terrible sin for it makes me deny God’s wisdom who used Jesus Christ who became nothing so that a sinner like me could be saved. So in the morning i woke up with the same downcast spirit. I then doubted if i should even go for prayer. I decide to go because when i decided to do the morning prayers, i asked God to help me pray irrespective of how i felt in the morning. Whiles praying i felt that i was not fit to pray to God, that i was faithless(thinking on my sins and how unbelieving i am), however i wanted to continue praying out of prayer being a tradition that i practiced each morning, this made me doubt if God would indeed respond to such a prayer. Just before i was about to give up and stop praying, the verse came to me, by faith and not by sight. I received motivation to pray out of obedience to God’s command (Jesus urged the disciples to pray, Jesus even taught the disciples how to pray, the disciples urged us to pray without ceasing), so i got strength to continue and even my prayer had some lively spirit. I believe God carried me through that prayer. Even when i left the church carrying my bible i did not feel shy (something i still need to overcome) around people, it was as if God was carrying me as if my religion was carrying me, i felt very light(without weight). This is what i want, a life that depends, that moves, that thinks, that loves, that behaves, that serves, that prays, that breaths based completely on the promises of God, a life lived by faith and not by sight carried by the blood of the lamb. I oftentimes hear about this, but Harry Ermerson puts very nicely for me, my religion must carry me, the scriptures tells that the teachings of God through Jesus are life giving able enough to turn a sinner into a hero and God’s greatness.